How We Block Money, Love, and Abundance in Our Lives - And What to Do About It

In this piece of my work, I am going to share with you something very intimate and, at the same time, incredibly powerful for all of us. It is based on a real therapeutic, subconscious, energetic EMDR session with a therapist - and this session was mine.

In the following lines, you will see how money and abundance exist in your energetic field, but the fear of being seen is actually holding you back from moving forward and truly living the life of your dreams - the life you deeply desire.

I have always had abundance blocks in my life - I never really lived a life where I could receive a lot. It was an issue - I was taught that way: money is hard to get, life is hard. For me, it was even harder because I always felt that I did not belong in the corporate world - there were times when I was staying in a low-paid position just because I was not able to face the discomfort of living a life where you are working from 9 to 6.

This is why it became harder for me to keep my finances stable. It was either the inability to be in the office all day, 4–5 days a week, or the fact that I could work from home, but for money that barely satisfied me.

Until the time came in my life when my work project got canceled and I lost my income. That was it. And now what? I had been preparing myself for the last 4 years to start my online mentoring business in the field of emotional and soul health. I was dreaming about this every single day - imagining myself as super successful. But that was it. I was not taking a single step - just a few posts from time to time, each deleted after a while because they did not truly feel like mine. I had huge experience - 7+ years in cosmetic marketing, a rich portfolio, government projects in Barcelona in biotech and sustainable bioengineering - and yet, nothing. Pure nothing. Nothing felt right, I was not receiving the miracles of life, I was not where I wanted to be - coaching, teaching. The old me would probably have said, “Hey, you are not good enough.” But I knew I was overqualified. I was someone with strong values, and I knew how to build a brand - not by being a mediocre marketer, but by holding authentic values and showing them. Then why was it so hard for me to step into my true power?

This is why I did an EMDR session on a topic that felt very relevant to me -  I explained to my therapist that I fear something and that there was a blockage within me, though I didn’t know exactly what kind of blockage. Then my therapist guided me back to my childhood, to when I was experiencing this emotion.

I saw myself in a real situation - 4–5 years old - when they bought me a small, very sweet lion toy, my zodiac sign. I felt that I didn’t deserve it because I didn’t want to sleep in the kindergarten. In other words, I felt undeserving of being the highest potential of my zodiac sign, of being myself, simply because I was not feeling like sleeping.

As we continued the session, I dove deep into my subconscious mind. I realized I wasn’t able to move forward because I was afraid of being seen. It felt safer to put on a mask and move forward without being who I truly wanted to be. This vulnerability was tense - I could feel it in my body.

At the same time, I experienced a strong sense of hunger - something that has haunted me for the past 5 years, during which I gained a lot of weight. I had been struggling to find my way back to my dream reality, but couldn’t. I realized that my hunger was a compensatory mechanism - in a strange way, it was my body taking care of me. The more I felt off my path, the hungrier I became, as if my body was trying to feed me and somehow compensate for the lack of happiness, money, and abundance in my life. 5 years. That way.

We continued the EMDR session, and things started to change - I tried being myself and walking through the door in the room where they gave me the lion, but it wasn’t possible. So, I imagined the people around me were not real - this had been my biggest fear for the last 9 years, and I finally knew why.

It was so scary for me to walk among people as my true, authentic self that I imagined they weren’t there. But this scared the most vulnerable part of my inner child - the lonely child. It felt like a never-ending scenario.

The other option was to imagine myself as my false self, wearing a mask — the one society always accepted, or the one I had been for the last 32 years. Either I was not myself to be with others, or they were not real, so I could be my true, authentic self. It felt like there was no other way.

With the help of my therapist, I finally imagined walking with confidence among the people, cautious, but truly me. And then I saw abundance - money right in front of me, in large amounts - a lot of dollars - but I couldn’t catch them. They weren’t coming to me.

As the session progressed, I was finally able to make the quantum energetic shift, and I saw myself eating the money. But it felt wrong - it felt like I didn’t know what to do with it, like I feared it. It wasn’t the right way to have a relationship with money.

Then we worked a bit more energetically with the method, and finally I saw the money as pure energy flowing through my body, while at the same time I was using it to connect with others. I was receiving from the Universe, but I was also giving the money back to the world, for connection and good causes. And it became crystal clear to me - the resources come into your life in the form of money, abundance, love, and relationships when you become your own resource. When you own who you are and share it with others.

I also felt fear and sadness that people in my lineage had not received much - they had lived in lack. Emotional lack and financial lack. But I realized I was the one who was going to change that reality - for myself and for them. Because when you change your energy, it flows to all the people in your lineage who need it. This is true healing. This is true integration.

If there is one thing I want to share with you, it is this -  we think we want something, until we realize we fear it. And only when we clear the blocks and fears that stop us can we step into our true power and create our dream life with the power of free conscious will.

As you can see, the patterns behind our lack of abundance - in love, relationships, and money - are very often rooted in our fear of being seen.

If you want to know more about how to connect with your dream reality, order my upcoming guide, The Three Pillars of Weight Loss Nobody Is Talking About. In this e-course, you will learn how to address your deep, authentic dreams and wishes, and you will be given the tools to transform your life - while at the same time transforming the physical shape of your body. Because they are all connected - and I am the person who has experienced this first-hand. I wish you a lot of love.

Belong to yourself first,

Neda - Nessence